have you ever felt like you just have this special connection with someone? like every time you are with them you both are doing nothing but completely enjoying yourselves? and you understand each other?
I think I have that. actually I'm pretty sure I do.
but I'm afraid to take any action about it. like it would be awkward, I think. but maybe she feels the same way. I don't know. it's only happened like three times. previously I'd dismissed it. but it just feels so right. but I don't know.
there are so many things stopping me. yet who am I to let things stop me? heh I'm a logical person, who knows that the world might frown upon this love. for now, at least. maybe it's best to wait; but then it might be too late. this is the very thing that I hate about emotions and feelings and love: they are so intangible.
I like tangibility.
anyway, so I missed a day. but I know it won't disrupt my habit forming. plus, I was having fun playing dodgeball, so supreme excuse. this was a good weekend. I am a happy boy.
biography
- Jason G
- six-foot caucasian male, non-smoker. enjoys crosswords, calculus, and cookies. welcomes new friendships and musical ideas. aspiring author, website designer, and screenwriter. often overthinks things, but doesn't prefer it.
3 comments:
i'm glad you had fun this weekend and i'm psyched to hear you guys made over 1000 bucks! ahhhhhh congratulations!
my advice on this love: keep in mind how you think you will feel in the future--i'm not just saying because of our little history :) but because someone else recently convinced himself that he was ready for complete commitment for a long time with me and then realized he was wrong after he had made the initial, "long-term relationship" move. and it really sucked on the other end. so. just be careful. there is a line between embracing your passions and your natural feelings and doing it so that it results in someone else getting hurt.
okay, spiel over.
yea. i'm sure i will miss her, too.
if you did dive into a relationship, you would have to consider how long-term you wanted to make it what with college. but if the girl is willing to maybe date or whatever until you go to college, that could be fun. also, you should tell me who the lucky girl is.
i'm staying in columbia to get missouri residency so i can get in-state tuition at mizzou next year. i'm excited to be staying in my pastor's house with a couple of great friends, but i'm starting to get this building feeling of intense dread in my stomach about being away from home for so long.
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