the captain's chair

today I went downtown to this sweet barber shop called the captain's chair.

I felt like I stepped back in time.

aside from the nautical theme, it was just like I imagined it. glass store front with the chairs facing out, people walking by and waving to the barber as he cut your hair, chit chat about what's going on in town, and a classy hair cut for a good price.

above anything, it was an experience. one that I will definitely do again. it was just a break from life, a transportation to a time that seemed simpler. it was peaceful and beautiful.

plus, now I am lookin' good.

have a good week!

God-centered living

lately I've really discovered that life is more manageable when I let God be my center.

for lent, I've been trying to read the Bible everyday. sure, I haven't succeeded, but I'm working on it. and there has been a noticeable difference on the days that I have. it wasn't that I had less to do or anything, I just felt like things weren't as stressful, and I really think that God is the reason.

so if anything, I'd encourage anyone reading this to start their day off with a prayer, and just ask for guidance through the day.

you never know what He will do.

holding on

can be so hard sometimes. i don't want it to end.

but how do i know if it must?

sigh.

honesty

there's something quirky about honesty. something that makes it unnerving to think about.

honesty is something that most people have trouble with. it's because honesty is usually something cruel, or blunt that isn't socially acceptable in most situations. how often do you tell the lady at the gas station counter that she has b.o. compared to when you just hold your breath and skedaddle as quickly as possible? 

it's the reaction that scares us. it's why we hide things, hold them inside. 

but we don't know the lady at the counter. 

we do know our friends.

so why aren't we honest with them? if they are really our friends, shouldn't they accept the honest truth, no matter how damaging it might be? yet, we often don't hold that confidence in our relationships. because for some reason once we are honest, ties get severed and things get awkward. so for 99.9% of our friendships we simply act like we 'should'

I just I feel like honesty shouldn't be such a taboo thing.

And I don't want to be punished for it.

crapathy

I feel so BLAH.

I have problems I don't want to deal with, and I don't know why.

My motivation comes in short spirts that I have to take advantage of.

I possess a lackluster mood about life.

I'm only doing what is required of me.

And I need to get out of this loop.

But for some reason I don't want to.

WHYYYY?

hmph.

found this in a box

business/busyness

so it's been awhile. a lot of things have changed, a lot have stayed the same.

I suppose the biggest news that I have is that I am now employed. I was lucky enough to have my Computer Science professor recommend me for a job in the department doing research on Constraint Processing, working on handling a database and its processes as well as improving and completing the Sudoku solver that someone has previous written here at the university.

otherwise, I have been busy with classes and working on just finding a balance in life. ends up that might be one of the biggest things I learn in the next four years, how to maintain a balanced life of productivity, relaxation, and enjoyment of the little things. it seems to easy to get caught up in everything and just become overwhelmed at the immensity of life.

sometimes I really struggle to find the silver lining.

but fortunately it's there. Colleen and I have started reading Job, which is a real testament to how to handle things when they seem overwhelming. one of my favorite verses says "shall we accept good from God, but not trouble?" it has really put things in perspective for me.

so I suppose, sitting back and looking at life, life is really beautiful right now.
I can only hope that it continues this way.